Transformation
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‘What the caterpillar experiences as the end of the world, becomes a butterfly…’ ~ Richard Bach, Illusions~
What is transformation – ‘it is the shifting from one state of being to another. It could even be viewed as a ‘mini death’ ~Rozelle Pilling~
Look at the way in which the seasons change. 1 September, Spring Day, hooray, we all shout after the winter. But was it really winter we experienced or was it something that was supposed to be winter, and left us wondering if it was or not? There were some very cold days for sure, but most days were really rather mild. It feels like winter was really very different this year. The meteorologists have a number of reasons why winter was so uncharacteristically winter.
Does it change the fact that it was winter? We still call it winter. Perhaps it just went through a midlife crisis. Or it decided to re-invent itself, and now we have a new winter.
Just like us, when we go through a transformation. There are sometimes subtle changes, and sometimes radical changes. Do these changes transform you? Well, your name stays the same. Just because something has changed does not mean it is no longer a part of you. The irony is that when you change an aspect of yourself, the only true way for that transformation to take place is if you integrate the transformed part. By integration I mean, it is part of you, it is accessible to you at any time by choice, and doesn’t pop up inappropriately.
The best way I grew to understand how change affects my body was when I had my first child. As you can imagine the change was enormous. Going from a very career-driven independent female to a mother, at home, very dependant, with a very small baby who slept most of the time and then became very active very early on. Besides getting all mushy about how I felt about my new baby, there were other aspects of my life that took a lot of my attention. In many ways, I as Rozelle changed as an individual. My identity changed. My new identity was Mother. What happened to the old Rozelle? Does she still exist? Or has my identity changed forever to Mother? Well, that change was like a mini-death. A transformation, from one person to another. The Rozelle that was not a mother has gone forever. Since this was a transformation that I experienced as a ‘mini-death’, I felt that the best way to deal with it was to mourn that old me. After all, it was gone forever. I was experiencing a void in the place where those aspects of myself had transformed, I used to live.
This is what happens when you heal negatively charged emotions. You experience a void of the place where that emotion used to live. Sometimes it is very difficult to let go of that thing that we identify with so strongly and often it defines who we are. Letting go of it would suggest that we would have to ‘re-invent’ ourselves. This is a very scary concept for many people.
Some of the healing questions I ask myself when I go through transformation – and it doesn’t matter how big or small, the questions are always helpful.
Have you ever considered who you would be without your baggage?
Without the things that push your buttons?
If you could wave a magic wand, who would you wake up as tomorrow morning?
What emotional charges would you let go of and what would you replace them with?
What would that make you, what kind of person would you be? What would you bring into the world?
What stops you from doing this?
Why is it important to you to hang on to your buttons? What do they do for you?
Many questions, and often we cannot answer these. To answer these questions often it is helpful to seek people like me who offer services that would assist you to answer these questions, and facilitate a process whereby, if you choose, you can let go of your baggage, you can re-invent yourself, and can be exactly who you want to be.
"When you experience a void in your 'soul' you have not found your passion. To be in touch with Soul, you have passion - passion is the emotional compass to your soul" ~Rozelle pilling~
How do you know passion? What does passion mean to you? How does it feel in your body when you have passion? With this question comes the question of happiness. Are the 2 the same thing? What makes you happy? Is it possible that the things that you feel passionate about, make you happy? Perhaps this is a clue to your passion, maybe this is a clue to your soul, your heart calling.
Here are some questions for you to ponder
What makes you feel complete?
What makes your heart sing?
What makes you smile?
What gets you out of bed with enthusiasm?
If you are stuck with any of these questions, if you feel there are blockages that stop you from fulfilling your full potential and being passionate about anything or anyone perhaps it is a calling for transformation.
